Today is the first day in a new year.Yes,that's right.Is already 2012 and I am still stay with my books for revision.But today my friend,Jian Hua already invited me to study calculus together.I slept at 3am yesterday not for count down,but staying alone in my hostel room study and fb+ing and i woke up at 11.00am today.I saw my friend's message that she will send her phone on 9.30am today and she told me there will be no contact for few weeks.I was about to send a message to her but i saw the time had past so i did not manage to send her any message.But strange thing was i sent a few message to her but she did not reply me any message and yet she sent me message.
My new year,i did not do anything special,although my friends did ask me out for countdown,but yesterday i really don't have any mood to countdown at all.Just think that is just 2012 and for me 2012 is just another year as others year too.So i just stayed up to revise and do one set question that provided from my friend also.It takes me three hours to find out all the six question's answer.Although is tired,i still manage to find it out.
Oh yea,New Year Resolutions:
1)Change of my new image in the sense of having a different view of me from others.
2)I hope in this coming few years,i will able to achieve in what i had set for my future.
3)Set a target for my sister for her SPM.
4)Keep on dancing and learned new kind of dances.
5)Know more people and associates with them well.
6)Last thing,i hope my journey will start with a fabulous experience where i can do something i never did before in previous year.Anything will do.
That's all for my new year hope.
Saturday 31 December 2011
Friday 30 December 2011
Experience
Today,i'm so eager to study and i told myself that i must wake up early today to study although yesterday i had slept late.And i woke up at 10.00am,quickly had a bath and carried my stuff go up to SANGGAR 12 where it is a nice place to study.I had study from 11.00am until afternoon 2.30pm and i just done one sheet of example question plus a bit revision on the equation.When the time reached till 3.00pm,i felt so stressed up because many things still dunno and yet the days are coming.After that,i decide to facebook a while and saw one of my friend just keep like other people status but din online.Then suddenly she come and PM me,she said she caught me in facebook but in fact i just online.Then she told me she was in the saloon perming her hair.So looking forward for her new image.
Then i told her something else,she was like very normal,haha...she seems very cool and chill....haha...Then she din replied me after that and i guessed she was cutting her hair.Then i saw another friend,Mis E was online.I chatted with her a while and we had chatted a lot of thing.We shared a lot of experiences and i very grateful she is willing to share with me and her advice to me.And all i can do is wish "her" good luck.My friend,Mis E she said she is very eager to see everyone changes,especially some friends where she did not keep in touch quite long.
At the same time,i also give her some advice and she also willing to listen,although i don't have that standard to give other people advice because i was a failure in certain aspect.Thank you and be patient,that's all i can advice to you,Mis E.
Haih,long time din chat with old friend and today have the chance to do so,it makes me feel good and not so stress.But sad thing is the date of final is coming,i still feel very tense up coz of the surrounding.Luckily i have my KPOP songs accompany me....HEHE!!!!
Thursday 29 December 2011
Random
Back to UPM since yesterday,alone carrying 4 packs of stuff walking from hentian serdang to K10 bus stop,a bit tiring but trained myself to carry such load.Since yesterday till today,i dun have any mood to start my revision.At first yes,i very eager to start it,but when slowly by slowly when i do some exercise and i just realized a lot of things i don't know,i started to give up.Until two times i had studied till fall asleep on my study table,this is the first time i had such experience in my life and is not a good experience.
Today studied a bit chemistry,and when i read the form six notes i brought,suddenly thought of a lot memories in FORM SIX life.I remembered my friends and teachers.So missed them and looking forward to meet them again in coming Chinese New Year.
Just now have a chat with my friend,and i just found out she will not coming for the dance camp.Well,she has her own reason not to come and i'm sure there is.Anyway,nice chat with her and bring up my mood a bit,so i continue study after that.Until now,i think i still need a lot of revision.
Hopefully,my test will pass with my own effort...hehe
Today studied a bit chemistry,and when i read the form six notes i brought,suddenly thought of a lot memories in FORM SIX life.I remembered my friends and teachers.So missed them and looking forward to meet them again in coming Chinese New Year.
Just now have a chat with my friend,and i just found out she will not coming for the dance camp.Well,she has her own reason not to come and i'm sure there is.Anyway,nice chat with her and bring up my mood a bit,so i continue study after that.Until now,i think i still need a lot of revision.
Hopefully,my test will pass with my own effort...hehe
Tuesday 27 December 2011
Christmas holiday
I just had a three-days holiday in KL,where i stayed at my cousin's house for the first time.I had done lot of shopping stuffs in KL where i went to Times Square,S.Wang,Pavilion,1 Utama and finally Mid Valley.The results were fascinating coz i got myself to buy a few clothes.But this was not the important thing i got from the holiday.
What i get from this holiday was very precious for me and is important for me to do any further decision on my future.My family and my cousin's family were chit-chatting about my future and my cousin's family members' performance.I was staying at my second uncle's son's house.This is the family i most admire of coz of their performance.Three kids,first one is LOGITECH manager,second is a girl and a doctor and the last one is a financial marketer.The first one just got himself a daughter and he is very happy.The doctor,already engaged since few months and will get married after she get her final paper as approved doctor.Her fiancee is a chemist,just like me.Both of them are my inspiration to my future.
One thing i admire and inspired the most from the doctor is she is so consistent in her studies and relationship eventhough she was studying in SABAH last time.And what i get from the talk is not everything goes smoothly as we want.For sure there will be crest and through all the way,it depends on how you manipulate the way u gonna pass through all those crest and through.And that is my challenge for me right now and my future.One more thing my uncle told me is that I must confirm really what i know in my future and manage my future relationship well,not only in family but with corporate also.He mentioned that the main inspiration is come from parents ad support from parents also.
I felt very grateful and thankful because i have the best parents i ever thought.Thanks to them,i just manage to get into primary school,secondary school and now UNIVERSITY....I know when the time when my father was comfort me during the choice of between doctor and engineer,he was sad coz i din get to choose to become doctor,sorry to tell him coz is really not my interest although the future is bright.And when the time i get the current course but not engineer,i was a bit sad but luckily i have my parents to explain to me what is the pros and cons of getting this course,and of course the best part was,i get to know a lot of friends in my kolej coz i get this course.....
I must learn to manage something that beyond my limit.Although i had fall down once,but i'm not gonna let it to become my reason to stop right now.Hopefully that tine u can become more mature in thinking and action.
What i get from this holiday was very precious for me and is important for me to do any further decision on my future.My family and my cousin's family were chit-chatting about my future and my cousin's family members' performance.I was staying at my second uncle's son's house.This is the family i most admire of coz of their performance.Three kids,first one is LOGITECH manager,second is a girl and a doctor and the last one is a financial marketer.The first one just got himself a daughter and he is very happy.The doctor,already engaged since few months and will get married after she get her final paper as approved doctor.Her fiancee is a chemist,just like me.Both of them are my inspiration to my future.
One thing i admire and inspired the most from the doctor is she is so consistent in her studies and relationship eventhough she was studying in SABAH last time.And what i get from the talk is not everything goes smoothly as we want.For sure there will be crest and through all the way,it depends on how you manipulate the way u gonna pass through all those crest and through.And that is my challenge for me right now and my future.One more thing my uncle told me is that I must confirm really what i know in my future and manage my future relationship well,not only in family but with corporate also.He mentioned that the main inspiration is come from parents ad support from parents also.
I felt very grateful and thankful because i have the best parents i ever thought.Thanks to them,i just manage to get into primary school,secondary school and now UNIVERSITY....I know when the time when my father was comfort me during the choice of between doctor and engineer,he was sad coz i din get to choose to become doctor,sorry to tell him coz is really not my interest although the future is bright.And when the time i get the current course but not engineer,i was a bit sad but luckily i have my parents to explain to me what is the pros and cons of getting this course,and of course the best part was,i get to know a lot of friends in my kolej coz i get this course.....
I must learn to manage something that beyond my limit.Although i had fall down once,but i'm not gonna let it to become my reason to stop right now.Hopefully that tine u can become more mature in thinking and action.
Friday 23 December 2011
Friends
Yesterday was one of my happy day ever.Because i ate tang yuan again made by my roommate's friends themselves.Thanks to them i felt the happiness and warmness among them.Another thing was yesterday i just watched the movie "You Are The Apple Of My Eyes".Indeed,it was a touching movie when towards the end.But in this movie,the scripts that they used in this movie keeps on reminding me on what i had told her before.Is just like what the movie had copied what i had said before.And the strange thing was the scenes inside this movie is almost the same as me and her had before.
I believe she is my “沈佳宜” ,but the scenes in my world here is different from the movie.Right now,i just want to ensure that she can get good results in her final especially her physics.She was so worried on her pertanian until she don't have much time to revise on the physics properly.I tried my best to help her as i could,hope my teaching can benefit her at least a bit and lessen her burden on revising the other topics on the physics.A few days ago we had a small chat while i was teaching her physics.At least i knew that she had the feeling also,but what she said were right.We both must study hard first because the basic is our future.Cannot just waste the basic and destroy our future.All i will do is wait for her patiently and help her in her studies if she need my help as far as i could。
Thanks to her,she let me feel back the friend's warmness and the use of a friend when i need a friend.She will always be there to wish,motivate or even smile on me.I really appreciate her kindness and careness.Good luck to her final exams and wish her will have a good grade.
JUST GO FOR IT!!!!!
I believe she is my “沈佳宜” ,but the scenes in my world here is different from the movie.Right now,i just want to ensure that she can get good results in her final especially her physics.She was so worried on her pertanian until she don't have much time to revise on the physics properly.I tried my best to help her as i could,hope my teaching can benefit her at least a bit and lessen her burden on revising the other topics on the physics.A few days ago we had a small chat while i was teaching her physics.At least i knew that she had the feeling also,but what she said were right.We both must study hard first because the basic is our future.Cannot just waste the basic and destroy our future.All i will do is wait for her patiently and help her in her studies if she need my help as far as i could。
Thanks to her,she let me feel back the friend's warmness and the use of a friend when i need a friend.She will always be there to wish,motivate or even smile on me.I really appreciate her kindness and careness.Good luck to her final exams and wish her will have a good grade.
JUST GO FOR IT!!!!!
Thursday 22 December 2011
Final exam
Look on my final exam schedule:
Organic Chemistry:04/01
TiTas:05/01
Physical + Inorganic:09/01
Calculus:10/01
Biology:14/01
Although my schedule will not that pack,
But the arrangement is not nice
Have to rush my holiday with certain revision
Plus the first two tests are my "killing" subject...
MEMORIZING....
OH MY GOSH!!!
luckily i have plan my timetable...
and i think i can handle it....
hehe...
Monday 19 December 2011
Sadness bring failure~~~Breathe and Glow...
I had another worst day in my world,that is yesterday.Nobody will understand how sad was I yesterday and how down was I when i was alone in my hostel room.BUT what can I do??Nothing....I was thinking just use a knife to stab into my heart or just jump from fifth floor.
Luckily,there's some friend who willing to hear from me,and i really appreciate,really....Thank you for you all.I have one friend,who are so willing enough until I haven manage to ask her to listen to my problem and she already mentioned that she willing to hear from me,really touched I have this kind of friend.But still wanna thanks to one of my friends,she really understand my situation and my mood cheer up a bit after listen to her advice and some motivation.Yes,I need some time to overcome my feeling.No one will ever know my feeling when your friends don't wanna pick up your call and don't wanna reply your sms.Maybe i deserve in such ways??I don't know.All i know right now is I need to set a timeline for me,after this timeline,is really over for ME!Yes,IS OVER.
Anyway,yesterday talk to my mum again,she said she long time did not go out gai gai since i was small last time.She said not convenient to bring me out coz i always very annoyed.Sorry for my innocent and my naughty mummy,cause you and daddy don't have two people world time after had me.But i will go for christmas celebration this sunday by coming to my cousin's house in KL...Yeah,can buy my new year clothes,shoes.If can,next year i want to change one new spec,i want to change myself in order to prove myself that i don't need "them" i still can be friends with others.At least my old school friends like Mr.Alien,Mr.Michael Jordan,Mis Fatty and Nerd these three are the person who i remember the most in my form 6 time,and some others still very concern of me,but for those,sorry if i have to ignore you.
Last week before final,few reports and revision need to be done soon,but i already in NEW YEAR mood...haha....
Sunday 18 December 2011
心情
心里下着的那一场大雨，
有谁会明白？？
我很辛苦，
或许这是你对我的惩罚。。
我想我应该做的东西，
就是放开一切。
但是我不想。
因为我就是不想。
我好想躲在床里，
好好的大哭一场。
因为我不够坚强。
我的苦衷，
有谁会明白？？
每个人都叫我不要在缠着她，
但。。。
算了吧，
我怎样做现在都是给人家烦感。
就学着保持沉默。
Thursday 15 December 2011
Good
Today i feel great no matter how i acted,i just can't found a reason for me to become sad.But i realized i worried someone when i was in the dancing class.I just don't know why and it just happen in such way.Until today she ask me whether i got worried about her safety.Of course i had if not i won't have such worries yesterday.But i was thinking she asking me something else,luckily i just realized after she mentioned it.
I think we are quite comfortable in such way when we meet.Not so frequently and just through messages.I asked her one question twice but both time also no reply.I guess she don't want to answer this question.At least i know now that is no more so called "harm" are existing anymore.I just want to have a normal way to meet her,chat with her and of course in future,maybe can just have the normal way to have relationship,who knows??But i don't expect much because i don't want to have another same mistake like last time.
I just afraid to anything further than this right now.I just keep my way from her as long no more harm and she is happy with that way.Yesterday,my dancing class monitor ask me how was me and she?i just answer her,nothing happen to both of us.By the way,at that time i just think of when i saw she is happy like last time during celebration.
Anyway,i feel happy today when i chat with my mum again.My mum tease me somemore,but i feel comfortable when i heard her laughter.I also went to the book fair to choose one book for my sister as christmas present but unfortunately nothing is bought because is not suitable at all.
I want to be more happy than yesterday.Jia you!!!!
I think we are quite comfortable in such way when we meet.Not so frequently and just through messages.I asked her one question twice but both time also no reply.I guess she don't want to answer this question.At least i know now that is no more so called "harm" are existing anymore.I just want to have a normal way to meet her,chat with her and of course in future,maybe can just have the normal way to have relationship,who knows??But i don't expect much because i don't want to have another same mistake like last time.
I just afraid to anything further than this right now.I just keep my way from her as long no more harm and she is happy with that way.Yesterday,my dancing class monitor ask me how was me and she?i just answer her,nothing happen to both of us.By the way,at that time i just think of when i saw she is happy like last time during celebration.
Anyway,i feel happy today when i chat with my mum again.My mum tease me somemore,but i feel comfortable when i heard her laughter.I also went to the book fair to choose one book for my sister as christmas present but unfortunately nothing is bought because is not suitable at all.
I want to be more happy than yesterday.Jia you!!!!
Wednesday 14 December 2011
Evolution
Is almost 2am from what i can see from my table clock,but i just can't sleep today.When i turn on my korean song playlist,i just choose on BIGBANG song,"tell me goodbye".This song is sang in Japanese version,i just keep repeating the song,then i just realized i already EMO+ing,because this is a love song.This song was mentioning that the narrator love a girl but the girl left the narrator without saying goodbye.The narrator just expressing the feeling of losing the girl.I just can't stop myself from playing this song.
This was reminded by one of my friend's status.And what i was reminded is the conversation between me and her.My friend was right,let the bygones be bygones,because there is nothing i can do right now.It is impossible for me to go back like those days.So my blog will always be the best place for me to say anything i like.I suddenly realized that actually i had a lot of new friends and friends who are still remember me and always be there for me when i need them.Thank you for the concern from each one of you these days,especially one of my friend in Melaka,who study in UUM right now,she is really my BBF and i won't forget her no matter how.
Memories are used for the reflash,but never let yourself to stay in the past memories.I must evolve from the past in order to change myself,that is the only way i can do to prove myself i already become mature,not only just study but also developing my social life.Right now,i have bunch of new friends who are understanding me,concern me and always be there for me no matter what.Plus I have my own lifestyle to study and go for activities,especially just develop my new interest,DANCING!!!
About "her' and me,i think the way i socialize with her now is better than last time,at least a bit better.Right now i just know something call freedom or space to view the aspect of socializing.I remind myself do not expect too much from her and just be normal although many people are saying something which is not real at all.Only she and me know the truth,so just let it be until the day has come.
I must be happy so that i won't let myself just drop into some place i never recognize myself anymore.
This was reminded by one of my friend's status.And what i was reminded is the conversation between me and her.My friend was right,let the bygones be bygones,because there is nothing i can do right now.It is impossible for me to go back like those days.So my blog will always be the best place for me to say anything i like.I suddenly realized that actually i had a lot of new friends and friends who are still remember me and always be there for me when i need them.Thank you for the concern from each one of you these days,especially one of my friend in Melaka,who study in UUM right now,she is really my BBF and i won't forget her no matter how.
Memories are used for the reflash,but never let yourself to stay in the past memories.I must evolve from the past in order to change myself,that is the only way i can do to prove myself i already become mature,not only just study but also developing my social life.Right now,i have bunch of new friends who are understanding me,concern me and always be there for me no matter what.Plus I have my own lifestyle to study and go for activities,especially just develop my new interest,DANCING!!!
About "her' and me,i think the way i socialize with her now is better than last time,at least a bit better.Right now i just know something call freedom or space to view the aspect of socializing.I remind myself do not expect too much from her and just be normal although many people are saying something which is not real at all.Only she and me know the truth,so just let it be until the day has come.
I must be happy so that i won't let myself just drop into some place i never recognize myself anymore.
Sunday 11 December 2011
relationship
Today i had a enough sleep until 1pm just now because is really a tired nap for me.I don't know what kind of feeling i should have right now.I really confused right now.Confused not because i'm not sure on what i want to have,is confused on what feeling should i have to face the reality.I need someone who can console my sorrowness,my loneliness and my sadness.I can't just put it down like this although i had said so in previous post.I really can't.
Facing her,i don't know should be just friends or just another special relationship with her.Because i know what i want,so i don't want to make any mistakes.Sometimes,feeling this kind of thing is always playing with us.When you don't want to think about it anymore,suddenly there's a miracle happen again in front of you.
Currently,what i had done now,i think is quite ok for her and me also.Plus,i can see that somebody is more popular than me among the choices,so i guess right now i'm not a problem anymore to her and this is a relieve for me.Hope that the pace now will keep maintain.I found out that she is keep thinking my feeling just temporary,i wonder why she will keep thinking like that.Maybe because she didn't want this kind of thing happen at all,or she just can't accept the fact that she has the feeling also?i don't know at all,all i know is i should keep a distance with her for now for not harming her at all.That is the most important.About the feeling,i just keep inside my heart first so that she happy and i am happy also.
Facing her,i don't know should be just friends or just another special relationship with her.Because i know what i want,so i don't want to make any mistakes.Sometimes,feeling this kind of thing is always playing with us.When you don't want to think about it anymore,suddenly there's a miracle happen again in front of you.
Currently,what i had done now,i think is quite ok for her and me also.Plus,i can see that somebody is more popular than me among the choices,so i guess right now i'm not a problem anymore to her and this is a relieve for me.Hope that the pace now will keep maintain.I found out that she is keep thinking my feeling just temporary,i wonder why she will keep thinking like that.Maybe because she didn't want this kind of thing happen at all,or she just can't accept the fact that she has the feeling also?i don't know at all,all i know is i should keep a distance with her for now for not harming her at all.That is the most important.About the feeling,i just keep inside my heart first so that she happy and i am happy also.
One day in Mid Valley
Thanks to friends who willing to accompany me come out to have fun although tomorrow still have the mega project to busy with/I have a lot of fun today and already ate+done many food and activities.I ate korean food,snowflakes,go for movie,go for bowling and many more.My friend also taught me how to have a meal like those korean they have their meal.Overall,today was a good day for me and i really appreciate my friend's help and guide to Mid Valley.Here are some pic,just enjoy:
taking photo with the special decoration in Mid Valley
that's me
me and my friend.thanks to her
korean food.I like it very much
rice cake(korean)..strongly recommend
korean style sotong
guess wat is this??
My high tea(big apple donuts)
Is my snowflakes.(is soya bean series)nice nice..first time eat...
This is my dinner....nice nice
Very fun and tired.I hope next time "she" will come with me also...SO that next time i will also have fun again with"her".....
Saturday 10 December 2011
regret??
Yesterday have another chat topic with her.I told her as long she did not regret then is OK for me.She mentioned that i am really important.Then i told her something that made her to think something else.She said she wanted to do in years which made me cannot think of what is that about.Anyway,i wasn't forcing her to do anything,as long she is happy and she din regret,that is fine for me.
I just wanted to see her happy always....really wanted her to happy..........
I just wanted to see her happy always....really wanted her to happy..........
Thursday 8 December 2011
Fading
Today,i just had my biology test.First time i felt so happy after i took my biology test because although i studied till 3 am last night and i still manage to answer all of the question.My effort was worth for it.
Just read her blog today,feel a bit regret and cannot face the other side of me because need to give up the feeling and hide it in the other part of me.I hope she will get better and happier after all my effort to get the situation right again.Of course i will always be her friend,but she also knows that i not only wanted to be just friends.However,i cannot do anything right now coz i feel that the more i done,the more harm and hurt i will cause to her,so i have to hide the feeling in sorrow.Yesterday i just found out that actually the like i have towards her is not temporarily,but all of this doesn't matter anymore,coz no matter how much i have the like on her,she won't notice also coz she just don't want to face her feeling at the same time.
So,i just take this as another short like feeling memory although is not short actually.Now as long she happy then i will be happy,that is more important.Hope she know what she is doing right now.
Everything had comes to the end
These two days,i wonder why she acted very strangely.After i read something,i just noticed she already a distance away from me.Maybe she is right,i'm just having a temporary like to her.From the beginning of the day when i enter UPM,i found out that she is a special friend for me,a friend that can have a lot of topic to mentioned.But i just realized that i can't further expand the relationship with her now,because it is quite impossible for me to do so.I don't dare to think of future relationship because now i knew that think too much will cause a lot of trouble and unneccessary rumours that might hurt everybody.So in order to not let this thing worsen,maybe she is right on keeping a distance a way from me.Therefore,i think i should prepare to keep my good feeling towards her in my other part of my soul and concentrate on my study.
Maybe my mum was right,i already destined to have my life partner after i worked.I shouldn't let go anything before this,but since decision already made,i don't want my past to become a dark shadow and haunting me everyday.And for future,i think i should keep my distance and my words to her away.Because it seems that rumours had affected her a lot.Moreover,final exams are around the corner,I guess she and me also want to concentrate on this exam.So i think i don't want to think too much on that matter anymore,just go ahead to do what i want to do in UPM.I want to join many activities as i could if i have the good sense of time management.
My first dream is to travel to KOREA,because i love korea culture very much.Therefore,i want to get my core subjects of my course in best way in order for me to learn the KOREA language in third year without any worries.Hopefully my first dream will come true.....
Saturday 3 December 2011
Worth day
Today,it was one of my most memorable day.Although today i am physically tired,but i never regret for doing this.Actually,tomorrow will be her birthday,but i had celebrate with her early.Today,i had my koku session at 12p.m.I ended my session on 3pm and then suddenly i got a call from her.She said she want to go back hostel to take something before went for the audition.In my heart i was like OK,coz since i also want to go back to take something,i just go back take something and accompany her to went to the audition place.After i get back,i just quickly had a bath and changed my attire.When she saw me,she said i'm look different than other time and she also want to change her attire too.I told her she already perfect with that attire but in the end,she still change it.Then we just go to the audition place and i just waited her at outside.
After that,we just went for the PLAN that she had suggested yesterday,that is go to THE MINES to get a new spectacles for her.I just followed her to the place.But then i already planned to celebrate her birthday today at that place.And she knew it too,so when arrived at there,i just went to search for the cake shop.We had chose a banana chocolate and went for PIZZAS.We ate two regular pizzas but not managed to finish it,so we just packed them up to bring back.Then it was celebration time and we just celebrate.I took some photos and she is very happy.She keep said thank you to me and i also very "paiseh",dunno why.After that we just go for the spec shop.She chose a new type of her new spec but i think every spec is also match to her coz face is pretty,every spec will be match to her pretty.After finish getting a spec,we just took a walk around THE MINES before it stopped operating.After that we just took the cab back to UPM.
So overall,i am very happy for her and she is also happy.Is worth for me to do this.Just now when i called her back,she said thank you again to me but i told her she is welcome.Haha.....But one thing i not quite comfortable is what other people think of me on the way i socialised with her.And yes,it seems that i'm quite troublesome and not really giving her any space to do her stuff.I should give her some space to do something else,not just meeting her and troublesome her.Because i don't want to burden her anything.I dun need other people to judge the way i socialize with other people,i only care what she think of my way to socialize.Even though other people dun want me to succeed,i also feel never mind,coz even i din succeed,at least i still have her as my friend.So is not a big deal of succeed or not.I just want to see she is happy always and not putting the sad face in her expression.So i told her what is my wish in the call for her 20th birthday.Hope she will remember.
Ok lar,is time to sleep.Bye...
After that,we just went for the PLAN that she had suggested yesterday,that is go to THE MINES to get a new spectacles for her.I just followed her to the place.But then i already planned to celebrate her birthday today at that place.And she knew it too,so when arrived at there,i just went to search for the cake shop.We had chose a banana chocolate and went for PIZZAS.We ate two regular pizzas but not managed to finish it,so we just packed them up to bring back.Then it was celebration time and we just celebrate.I took some photos and she is very happy.She keep said thank you to me and i also very "paiseh",dunno why.After that we just go for the spec shop.She chose a new type of her new spec but i think every spec is also match to her coz face is pretty,every spec will be match to her pretty.After finish getting a spec,we just took a walk around THE MINES before it stopped operating.After that we just took the cab back to UPM.
So overall,i am very happy for her and she is also happy.Is worth for me to do this.Just now when i called her back,she said thank you again to me but i told her she is welcome.Haha.....But one thing i not quite comfortable is what other people think of me on the way i socialised with her.And yes,it seems that i'm quite troublesome and not really giving her any space to do her stuff.I should give her some space to do something else,not just meeting her and troublesome her.Because i don't want to burden her anything.I dun need other people to judge the way i socialize with other people,i only care what she think of my way to socialize.Even though other people dun want me to succeed,i also feel never mind,coz even i din succeed,at least i still have her as my friend.So is not a big deal of succeed or not.I just want to see she is happy always and not putting the sad face in her expression.So i told her what is my wish in the call for her 20th birthday.Hope she will remember.
Ok lar,is time to sleep.Bye...
Thursday 1 December 2011
random
Today,i just got back my calculus test 2 paper.I thought this time my calculus paper will be a disaster because i did not really have a look on the theory part.Luckily i had a good MATH tutor in FORM SIX and his notes help me a lot in my calculus paper,so i still remember what should be done in the calculus question.Thanks to him and my calculus test 2 is safe and i quite satisfied by the result.But what make me feel sad is last test i study a lot but i did not get the marks i wanted,strange thing is i did not study this time can get higher marks than test 1.When he announced that our performance is poor,i already knew the day will come but luckily i still manage to survive.....haha...
Yesterday,i had dance practise.RX had teach us some new steps and i learned it quickly.I feel very happy in every dance practise because i can learn new dance steps.Somemore the dance camp is near too...I am looking forward to the dance camp in February next year coz my dancing class monitor said the dance we are going to learn in the dance camp will be the dance in next year dance concert.Once i heard it,i become more happy coz finally can perform for next year dance concert.I will learn it by all my heart till flawless.
Tomorrow,she will go for the lawatan to the orang asli place.Either go to Klang or Ampang,she told me depends on situation.She ask me whether i want to come along at first,but she seems like want to retreat what she had spoken.Anyway,if she allow me to go,of course i will go coz all of of her group members are girl,so is better there is a boy following for the lawatan.
Smile always...hehe
Yesterday,i had dance practise.RX had teach us some new steps and i learned it quickly.I feel very happy in every dance practise because i can learn new dance steps.Somemore the dance camp is near too...I am looking forward to the dance camp in February next year coz my dancing class monitor said the dance we are going to learn in the dance camp will be the dance in next year dance concert.Once i heard it,i become more happy coz finally can perform for next year dance concert.I will learn it by all my heart till flawless.
Tomorrow,she will go for the lawatan to the orang asli place.Either go to Klang or Ampang,she told me depends on situation.She ask me whether i want to come along at first,but she seems like want to retreat what she had spoken.Anyway,if she allow me to go,of course i will go coz all of of her group members are girl,so is better there is a boy following for the lawatan.
Smile always...hehe
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