等

等，

是一个最残忍的考验。

就比如说，

等巴士到，等某人载，或者是等东西吃。。。

但是，

承诺等待一个人，

那才是真正的考验。

今天突然有个觉悟，

能为一个值得你等的人而等他/她，

那叫做考验。

有对情侣，

开始时，那男原是没打那女生的主意。

但久而久之，

那男的发现他喜欢上她，

于是就追了她，最后她接受了他，

就这样成了一对情侣。

在过程当中，

就有些了误会，

男的误会女的，

就误会她以为那女的就不喜欢他，

对，

那女的之前的确喜欢的不是他，

但她最后发现，

与其喜欢一个他根本不喜欢她的人，

不如珍惜现在她没喜欢过的人而喜欢她的人。

可惜的是，

那男的并不知道这一切。

直到有一天，

他工作的地方，

突然爆炸，

那男的为了救那女的，

就叫她赶快跑，

就这样，

那男的就在这场爆炸中受了严重的伤，

甚至还昏迷到连危险期都还没过。

于是她就很难过。

虽然男的不知道这女的已经全心全意的喜欢他了，

他也还误会着她

但他还是很顾他女朋友的安全，

叫她先离开，

结果还受伤，

可见得，

他是很爱她的。

因为他毕竟辛辛苦苦地争取到她的。

在她的男友还在昏迷当中，

她就看到一个短片，

是这男生拍的，

准备想她求婚的。。

这女生看了短片后，

就说了一句：“我会等你的。”

从这，

我就突然想到，

我也会等你的，

因为这几年来，

我才发现到，

原来我应该等的人早已出现了，

只是我错过了。

所以现在，

我会等你的。。。

眼泪的的喜怒哀乐

眼泪，

可以有很多种。

但是，

你有没有想过，

眼泪的喜怒哀乐，

它的存在，

代表着什么意义呢？？

我在想，

人会掉眼泪，

因为他/她有感情；

但直到最近我才觉悟到，

人会掉眼泪，

因为他/她改变了。

不知不觉，

今天的我，

竟然看了一套戏而掉了眼泪。

以前的我，

无论那套戏有多悲伤，

我都不会掉下眼泪。

我才发现到，

原来我真的变了。

不是在夸张，也不是在嚣张，

而是出发于内心的感触。

对，

我和前女友分手时，

也曾掉过眼泪，

但那时是因为某些事故的发生才会这样。

我曾经掉过很多次的眼泪，
但这一次，
是真的出于我的内心。
就连我几时变了，
我也不知道。

所以说，

人是会变的。

P.S:今天看了法证先锋才考试。。呵呵

DOWN

10.40

This 4 significant figures number

makes my day drop down till max...

coursemate told me:

"can check the organic test mark already"

I was like:

"ok,afterall,i already know what kind of mark i will get!"

when i opened up my labby and checked it,

this 4 significant figures number appear on the screen...

BUT

that's not the point

The point is

I HAD READ AND DO NOTES

why i still can't score??!!

I am very disappointed,

i still revise before the test 

and yet

I STILL GET IT WRONG!!!

"TAN CHEE HAO,

what are u thinking right now??!!

you want the exact situation happened again in sem 1??"

I never blame anything,

i just blame myself for not giving much effort...

hope i still gt chance to pull back my carry marks in test 2..

GOD BLESS ME

suddenly saw this in facebook 

and

i thinked it was meaningful so shared out at here:

单身的原因 < SHARED >

越长大，越难和另一个人在一起。
...


不是因为条件。还是有人喜欢你，你也活得比以前更好，不再那么任性，更像在投资的艺术品。

也不是因为对爱情死心。在KTV突然听到的某首歌，会让你不自禁模糊了视线。一些场景，一些气息，始终无法忘怀。朋友帮你介绍时，你也会满心期待。

却依然单身。闭上眼睛吹蜡烛的时候，总是希望身边有另一个人一起许愿。一些客气的场合，有人来搭讪，话题围绕着你单身的原因。而他们最后给出的结论是，你太挑了。你在心里面笑，所以其他人都不挑？

其实你自己知道，为什么不能好好谈一场恋爱。就是因为，你太清楚自己是怎样的一块料，所以不会再轻而易举把自己交出去。就像是，有一天你发现跌倒以后的伤口，会开始留下疤痕，于是走路时不敢再大步跨出去。

因为，你惯性太强、记性太好。认识一个人很简单，忘记一个人很困难。你曾经心满意足的闭上眼睛，让另一个人带你去任何地方，最后却差点回不来。所以不能再失去方向感。

于是你就变得胆小了。以前喜欢恋人有幽默感，现在更在乎安全感。以前打电话找不到人就拼命的打，现在发了短信没回应，即使心中有波动也可以忍住。以前最有兴趣的话题是对方的过去，现在会先关心这份感情有没有未来。

所以，空暇的时候，你宁愿和朋友在烈日下逛街，也不愿让对方觉得自己很在乎什么。你安慰自己，有朋友就够了，一个人生活也很好。你忘记了当另一个人恋人的感觉，当那个人出现时，你开始慌张、害怕。

只是，你并不是一定要单身，就像你也没计划过一定用哪只手写字。不过是，既然如此了那就这样吧。你想要有人一起旅行，一起看电影。你想和那个人说自己准备好 了，只是没有勇气，请对方多一点耐心。你想说不再需要太多惊喜，在心里等的是一份相守以望的感情，抬起头来相视而笑，安心的生活，如此而已。

我会告诉我自己：

Never make the permanent decisions based 

on temporary feelings AGAIN！

Raining

Few days of continuous raining

makes my day feel bored and sleepy..

BUT

what can i do about it??

Yesterday just had sing K with my form six friends

not many of them 

but it was like in the concert..

TOO HIGH 

until the last few songs were ROCK songs..

It was fun and funny

when all of us run of pitch and tone...

We not only sing english songs and chinese songs

More importantly,

WE SANG KOREAN SONGS!!!!

I feel very stressed in this semester,

and i couldn't tell the reason why.

Maybe is because I didn't manage my time well

until many things are so packed together..

test,dance practise,assignments,dance concert(coming) or even revising

make me feel that everything was passing too fast...

Sometimes,

i feel very lonely

after the first breakup

Well,i guess that was normal for every guy who had broke up

and 

usually will get this kind of advice

"broke up already then find another one,no point getting sad here"

but 

they do not understand what is the real meaning of

"GETTING A NEW GF"

haha..

i guessed i talk too much about this..

maybe i am too rush for having a relationship

and i still cannot handle it...

"sigh"

Seriously NEED a break from all of these

thinking of going vacation 

but it seems quite impossible coz i don't even have time to go back hometown

AND YET

i need to manage my time well again...

ARGH!!!

stress pls go away from me......

情伤

几年都过去了，

前两天才知道你已经有新的男友。。

真的替你感到高兴，

真的。。。

你一定要比以前更幸福哦

情伤，

不是兜着玩的。。

我现在的心情真的很复杂。。

我不知道应该怎么想。。

我来到大学，

认识了一位女生。。

现在算是我的好朋友。。

她告诉我，

“不要因为你看到你的朋友有了伴侣，

你就也想要。。”

想想回去，

她说的一点都没错，

因为这是我当初犯下的错误，

还好有她的提醒，

也谢谢她约我出来发泄（跳舞）

真的很舒服，对吗？（在问你啊！！）

哈哈。。

我想通了，

我不能因为我的欲望，

而去伤害“另一个”无辜的女生，

因为她对我来说，

是个可爱无比，及天真活泼的女生

所以我要克制我自己的欲望。。。

对不起了，

早期对你说的东西，

要画上句号了。。

有时候，

做人不能太跟着你的原则，

去做一件事，尤其是很重要的事。。

要以你理智的想法，去实行那件事。。

对，

你会有时怕你受伤后，

会在得回同样的伤。。。

这就是人生，

不要因为害怕，

却让你错失了人生精彩的一面。。

我希望，

有天你会变得更坚强，

更勇敢。。

赠给Syd.LYY....

random

WOW
since when the blog setting already changed??
(it means that it had been long time for me to update my blog,hehe)

OK,
since one of my readers requested me to update my blog(coz she is one of my best friends lar)..
let's just make it very informal blogging....

One year had past since the first day i entered my Uni,
when i realized it had passed for one whole year and looking all the juniors so eager to enter Uni that day,
there was a few scenes just reflected on my mind,
telling me that i had finish my first year in Uni...

Dance:
Nevertheless,it has been an interesting year for me as i get to know a lot of friends,especially dancemates..
I had joined the dance club in my UNI and i gained a lot from there..
Now i had showed myself that even i'm not a dancer at all as my background,i still can prove that i am able to do something i never try before and i did it very well...
well,i don't know whether i had impressed other people on my achievements in dance,but one thing for sure,I HAD SURPASS MY OWN TARGET:that is making anything impossible to possible in just one year...
Now,everybody in my UNI knew me as a dancers and i will keep improving myself from time to time...
I had performed a few times and even solo in front of hundreds of people.,now fear is no more an obstacle for me to express myself in the form of dance and i finally found a way to telling people that i am happy,sad,lonely or even angry by just dancing.

One of my performances recently by doing STREETDANCE name as POPPIN

Academically:
Well,nothing much i can say about it coz i know what should i do and what i need to do from time to time..
Nowadays,my parents will be always my inspiration..
Recently i just realized that i get very closed to my mother,even the time i had accident on my first day of lecture,i never thought twice at all...I just picked up my phone and call my mum at the first time...
Now,I trying to balance my time by giving my studies and dance an equal management of time...

Relationship:
Still single...
quite of my friends telling me to give up on her...
but i just couldn't do it although already past for long time...
I think i only can bear with her in my mind...
I tried on other people before,
but is useless..
Hope she will understand like i do....

I think that's all for the blogging,or else someone will scold me writting an essay instead of blogging,....
take care for those who reads and we might be meeting soon......

The end of my first year

Finally,I had finished my second sem and complete my course for one year.In this 2nd sem,i had learnt a lot of things that I never been done before.Cooking spaghetti,learning more dance and manage my social skills,all of these I realized that I had done in this sem.

But something happen indeed,hurt me a lot after I knew it,and is just recently in my final exam.After I knew the thinking from her,i just realized all the while she just don't believe me.For me,i think is already gone.So let the bygones be the bygones and I shall have the courage to get my second hug from other people.

This sem,i had a lot of fun and enjoy,in outing and dancing.In dance class,I had been selected as secretary for the new committee.In outing,I had exceeded the number of time that I should be,luckily did not interfere with my studies progress.My second performance,Hari Belia was a success and I really enjoy with my dancing groups.Next is dance party farewell.I had a good time at there and thanks to the organizers.Outing??of course a lot of activities had been carried out,like snooker(my favourite),movies and sing K of course.I never stop enjoy the moment.

Studies??err,dun even think of talking about it.It was totally different from what I have been imagined after final in first sem.I had distorted study schedule,all of the presentation(done my own even in under group) and MORE WORST,I had became lazy.However,I still manage to keep up my carry marks and hit the target,and that was closed coz i never expected that.

My hope??improve my dance skills to a certain level and continue fight for my future.That's all for my hope for next sem.Other than that,just follow the flow of nature.Because I believe in strong wills.

Happy holiday to all the university students...