New Year 2012....

Today is the first day in a new year.Yes,that's right.Is already 2012 and I am still stay with my books for revision.But today my friend,Jian Hua already invited me to study calculus together.I slept at 3am yesterday not for count down,but staying alone in my hostel room study and fb+ing and i woke up at 11.00am today.I saw my friend's message that she will send her phone on 9.30am today and she told me there will be no contact for few weeks.I was about to send a message to her but i saw the time had past so i did not manage to send her any message.But strange thing was i sent a few message to her but she did not reply me any message and yet she sent me message.

My new year,i did not do anything special,although my friends did ask me out for countdown,but yesterday i really don't have any mood to countdown at all.Just think that is just 2012 and for me 2012 is just another year as others year too.So i just stayed up to revise and do one set question that provided from my friend also.It takes me three hours to find out all the six question's answer.Although is tired,i still manage to find it out.

Oh yea,New Year Resolutions:
1)Change of my new image in the sense of having a different view of me from others.
2)I hope in this coming few years,i will able to achieve in what i had set for my future.
3)Set a target for my sister for her SPM.
4)Keep on dancing and learned new kind of dances.
5)Know more people and associates with them well.
6)Last thing,i hope my journey will start with a fabulous experience where i can do something i never did before in previous year.Anything will do.

That's all for my new year hope.

Experience

Today,i'm so eager to study and i told myself that i must wake up early today to study although yesterday i had slept late.And i woke up at 10.00am,quickly had a bath and carried my stuff go up to SANGGAR 12 where it is a nice place to study.I had study from 11.00am until afternoon 2.30pm and i just done one sheet of example question plus a bit revision on the equation.When the time reached till 3.00pm,i felt so stressed up because many things still dunno and yet the days are coming.After that,i decide to facebook a while and saw one of my friend just keep like other people status but din online.Then suddenly she come and PM me,she said she caught me in facebook but in fact i just online.Then she told me she was in the saloon perming her hair.So looking forward for her new image.

Then i told her something else,she was like very normal,haha...she seems very cool and chill....haha...Then she din replied me after that and i guessed she was cutting her hair.Then i saw another friend,Mis E was online.I chatted with her a while and we had chatted a lot of thing.We shared a lot of experiences and i very grateful she is willing to share with me and her advice to me.And all i can do is wish "her" good luck.My friend,Mis E she said she is very eager to see everyone changes,especially some friends where she did not keep in touch quite long.

At the same time,i also give her some advice and she also willing to listen,although i don't have that standard to give other people advice because i was a failure in certain aspect.Thank you and be patient,that's all i can advice to you,Mis E.

Haih,long time din chat with old friend and today have the chance to do so,it makes me feel good and not so stress.But sad thing is the date of final is coming,i still feel very tense up coz of the surrounding.Luckily i have my KPOP songs accompany me....HEHE!!!!

Random

Back to UPM since yesterday,alone carrying 4 packs of stuff walking from hentian serdang to K10 bus stop,a bit tiring but trained myself to carry such load.Since yesterday till today,i dun have any mood to start my revision.At first yes,i very eager to start it,but when slowly by slowly when i do some exercise and i just realized a lot of things i don't know,i started to give up.Until two times i had studied till fall asleep on my study table,this is the first time i had such experience in my life and is not a good experience.

Today studied a bit chemistry,and when i read the form six notes i brought,suddenly thought of a lot memories in FORM SIX life.I remembered my friends and teachers.So missed them and looking forward to meet them again in coming Chinese New Year.

Just now have a chat with my friend,and i just found out she will not coming for the dance camp.Well,she has her own reason not to come and i'm sure there is.Anyway,nice chat with her and bring up my mood a bit,so i continue study after that.Until now,i think i still need  a lot of revision.

Hopefully,my test will pass with my own effort...hehe

Christmas holiday

I just had a three-days holiday in KL,where i stayed at my cousin's house for the first time.I had done lot of shopping stuffs in KL where i went to Times Square,S.Wang,Pavilion,1 Utama and finally Mid Valley.The results were fascinating coz i got myself to buy a few clothes.But this was not the important thing i got from the holiday.

What i get from this holiday was very precious for me and is important for me to do any further decision on my future.My family and my cousin's family were chit-chatting about my future and my cousin's family members' performance.I was staying at my second uncle's son's house.This is the family i most admire of coz of their performance.Three kids,first one is LOGITECH manager,second is a girl and a doctor and the last one is a financial marketer.The first one just got himself a daughter and he is very happy.The doctor,already engaged since few months and will get married after she get her final paper as approved doctor.Her fiancee is a chemist,just like me.Both of them are my inspiration to my future.

One thing i admire and inspired the most from the doctor is she is so consistent in her studies and relationship eventhough she was studying in SABAH last time.And what i get from the talk is not everything goes smoothly as we want.For sure there will be crest and through all the way,it depends on how you manipulate the way u gonna pass through all those crest and through.And that is my challenge for me right now and my future.One more thing my uncle told me is that I must confirm really what i know in my future and manage my future relationship well,not only in family but with corporate also.He mentioned that the main inspiration is come from parents ad support from parents also.

I felt very grateful and thankful because i have the best parents i ever thought.Thanks to them,i just manage to get into primary school,secondary school and now UNIVERSITY....I know when the time when my father was comfort me during the choice of between doctor and engineer,he was sad coz i din get to choose to become doctor,sorry to tell him coz is really not my interest although the future is bright.And when the time i get the current course but not engineer,i was a bit sad but luckily i have my parents to explain to me what is the pros and cons of getting this course,and of course the best part was,i get to know a lot of friends in my kolej coz i get this course.....

I must learn to manage something that beyond my limit.Although i had fall down once,but i'm not gonna let it to become my reason to stop right now.Hopefully that tine u can become more mature in thinking and action.

Friends

Yesterday was one of my happy day ever.Because i ate tang yuan again made by my roommate's friends themselves.Thanks to them i felt the happiness and warmness among them.Another thing was yesterday i just watched the movie "You Are The Apple Of My Eyes".Indeed,it was a touching movie when towards the end.But in this movie,the scripts that they used in this movie keeps on reminding me on what i had told her before.Is just like what the movie had copied what i had said before.And the strange thing was the scenes inside this movie is almost the same as me and her had before.

I believe she is my “沈佳宜” ,but the scenes in my world here is different from the movie.Right now,i just want to ensure that she can get good results in her final especially her physics.She was so worried on her pertanian until she don't have much time to revise on the physics properly.I tried my best to help her as i could,hope my teaching can benefit her at least a bit and lessen her burden on revising the other topics on the physics.A few days ago we had a small chat while i was teaching her physics.At least i knew that she had the feeling also,but what she said were right.We both must study hard first because the basic is our future.Cannot just waste the basic and destroy our future.All i will do is wait for her patiently and help her in her studies if she need my help as far as i could。

Thanks to her,she let me feel back the friend's warmness and the use of a friend when i need a friend.She will always be there to wish,motivate or even smile on me.I really appreciate her kindness and careness.Good luck to her final exams and wish her will have a good grade.

JUST GO FOR IT!!!!!

Final exam

Look on my final exam schedule:

Organic Chemistry:04/01

TiTas:05/01

Physical + Inorganic:09/01

Calculus:10/01

Biology:14/01

Although my schedule will not that pack,

But the arrangement is not nice

Have to rush my holiday with certain revision

Plus the first two tests are my "killing" subject...

MEMORIZING....

OH MY GOSH!!!

luckily i have plan my timetable...

and i think i can handle it....

hehe...

Sadness bring failure~~~Breathe and Glow...

I had another worst day in my world,that is yesterday.Nobody will understand how sad was I yesterday and how down was I when i was alone in my hostel room.BUT what can I do??Nothing....I was thinking just use a knife to stab into my heart or just jump from fifth floor.

Luckily,there's some friend who willing to hear from me,and i really appreciate,really....Thank you for you all.I have one friend,who are so willing enough until I haven manage to ask her to listen to my problem and she already mentioned that she willing to hear from me,really touched I have this kind of friend.But still wanna thanks to one of my friends,she really understand my situation and my mood cheer up a bit after listen to her advice and some motivation.Yes,I need some time to overcome my feeling.No one will ever know my feeling when your friends don't wanna pick up your call and don't wanna reply your sms.Maybe i deserve in such ways??I don't know.All i know right now is I need to set a timeline for me,after this timeline,is really over for ME!Yes,IS OVER.

Anyway,yesterday talk to my mum again,she said she long time did not go out gai gai since i was small last time.She said not convenient to bring me out coz i always very annoyed.Sorry for my innocent and my naughty mummy,cause you and daddy don't have two people world time after had me.But i will go for christmas celebration this sunday by coming to my cousin's house in KL...Yeah,can buy my new year clothes,shoes.If can,next year i want to change one new spec,i want to change myself in order to prove myself  that i don't need "them" i still can be friends with others.At least my old school friends like Mr.Alien,Mr.Michael Jordan,Mis Fatty and Nerd these three are the person who i remember the most in my form 6 time,and some others still very concern of me,but for those,sorry if i have to ignore you.

Last week before final,few reports and revision need to be done soon,but i already in NEW YEAR mood...haha....