Emo+ing

Yesterday i was sad because of two matters:

First,

SICK DAY

suddenly get fever and flu from no where,

keep sneezing after my dinner

After dinner,whole body like burning.

WORST THING WAS

i had exam somemore.

So i did not revise much

and

just depend on my form six memory.

Second,

FRIEND'S MATTER

my friend suddenly send me a sms,

said her fatty(dog) had passed away.

Once i saw the message,i just quickly called to her and comfort her.

at first i was thinking,

she sure crying on that time,

and 

YES,

she was crying once she picked up my phone.

I totally no idea what should i comfort her,

all i know just talk craps,

i don't know whether what i had said is wisely to her or not,

what had crossed over my mind i just comfort her,

though i know is not comfort for her enough.

In the conversation once heard her crying sound,

i also feel sad for her.

Because the dog meant so much for her.

Hope she will recover from the incident and let the memories always be with her.

Be strong k??

^^

when i give up on you,

it means i really give up everything

and 

i will just give u a smile and said

IS OK

no matter what had happened and how it happened

Without you,

i still can sleep,eat even have my own life.

I don't care what had u think,

or rather said "THEY" think,

for me,is just a thought of u all

BUT

important thing is how i judge myself

Thanks to one of my friends,WEE SERN..

luckily in this semester,

I have this friend by my side,

who always console and consult me

on the way to see things better

he told me that the road is not always straight

but is the way u make it become straight.

THANK YOU MY FRIEND,

YOU ARE THE BEST FRIEND I HAD IN THIS LIFE.

Caring

Today just had my ISLAMIC FINAL TEST,

two words can describe my performance today,

"VERY SUCKS"

Haiz,

sad sad

Today while during the conversation,

she said that i am not caring enough.

Hmm,

I was thinking that if i over caring,

exact thing will happen again as last time

coz we are still friends right now.

Unless a further relationship has happen,

I will just able to do so.

I don't want later will bring a lot of trouble to her.

So very sorry if my impression to u is still not caring enough,

coz i can't and is not i don't want.

Exam fever

today is the last day i can rest before my first final exam start.And my first exam will be organic chemistry.I just don't figured out why i just can't scored my first two test in organic chemistry,till today i just found out why.

NOT ENOUGH REVISION!!

at least today i had revised most of the organic chemistry chapters and memorize quite some of the important organic reaction.Hopefully tomorrow's test will not disappointed my effort for these few day's revision.

But i scare one thing might happen again and it is terrifying me all my life.HISTORY AND ISLAMIC FACTS is killing me.I just don't know why,once i open my TITAS book,i just cannot focus,i'm not sure whether is because of too many words and i don't like it,or is because i'm a person who do not like to read.But luckily,these few days revision and some few general questions had ease my phobia a little bit but anyway,i still feel a bit afraid of what i had read will not be tested in the exam because all the way after first test,i did not even touch on my TITAS revision and i had promised myself that next semester university course cannot be in that way anymore because i will be taking two memorizing subjects:kenegaraan and pertanian.

YES,i tell myself:ADD OIL coz first semester will be ended in few more days.

New Year 2012....

Today is the first day in a new year.Yes,that's right.Is already 2012 and I am still stay with my books for revision.But today my friend,Jian Hua already invited me to study calculus together.I slept at 3am yesterday not for count down,but staying alone in my hostel room study and fb+ing and i woke up at 11.00am today.I saw my friend's message that she will send her phone on 9.30am today and she told me there will be no contact for few weeks.I was about to send a message to her but i saw the time had past so i did not manage to send her any message.But strange thing was i sent a few message to her but she did not reply me any message and yet she sent me message.

My new year,i did not do anything special,although my friends did ask me out for countdown,but yesterday i really don't have any mood to countdown at all.Just think that is just 2012 and for me 2012 is just another year as others year too.So i just stayed up to revise and do one set question that provided from my friend also.It takes me three hours to find out all the six question's answer.Although is tired,i still manage to find it out.

Oh yea,New Year Resolutions:
1)Change of my new image in the sense of having a different view of me from others.
2)I hope in this coming few years,i will able to achieve in what i had set for my future.
3)Set a target for my sister for her SPM.
4)Keep on dancing and learned new kind of dances.
5)Know more people and associates with them well.
6)Last thing,i hope my journey will start with a fabulous experience where i can do something i never did before in previous year.Anything will do.

That's all for my new year hope.

Experience

Today,i'm so eager to study and i told myself that i must wake up early today to study although yesterday i had slept late.And i woke up at 10.00am,quickly had a bath and carried my stuff go up to SANGGAR 12 where it is a nice place to study.I had study from 11.00am until afternoon 2.30pm and i just done one sheet of example question plus a bit revision on the equation.When the time reached till 3.00pm,i felt so stressed up because many things still dunno and yet the days are coming.After that,i decide to facebook a while and saw one of my friend just keep like other people status but din online.Then suddenly she come and PM me,she said she caught me in facebook but in fact i just online.Then she told me she was in the saloon perming her hair.So looking forward for her new image.

Then i told her something else,she was like very normal,haha...she seems very cool and chill....haha...Then she din replied me after that and i guessed she was cutting her hair.Then i saw another friend,Mis E was online.I chatted with her a while and we had chatted a lot of thing.We shared a lot of experiences and i very grateful she is willing to share with me and her advice to me.And all i can do is wish "her" good luck.My friend,Mis E she said she is very eager to see everyone changes,especially some friends where she did not keep in touch quite long.

At the same time,i also give her some advice and she also willing to listen,although i don't have that standard to give other people advice because i was a failure in certain aspect.Thank you and be patient,that's all i can advice to you,Mis E.

Haih,long time din chat with old friend and today have the chance to do so,it makes me feel good and not so stress.But sad thing is the date of final is coming,i still feel very tense up coz of the surrounding.Luckily i have my KPOP songs accompany me....HEHE!!!!

Random

Back to UPM since yesterday,alone carrying 4 packs of stuff walking from hentian serdang to K10 bus stop,a bit tiring but trained myself to carry such load.Since yesterday till today,i dun have any mood to start my revision.At first yes,i very eager to start it,but when slowly by slowly when i do some exercise and i just realized a lot of things i don't know,i started to give up.Until two times i had studied till fall asleep on my study table,this is the first time i had such experience in my life and is not a good experience.

Today studied a bit chemistry,and when i read the form six notes i brought,suddenly thought of a lot memories in FORM SIX life.I remembered my friends and teachers.So missed them and looking forward to meet them again in coming Chinese New Year.

Just now have a chat with my friend,and i just found out she will not coming for the dance camp.Well,she has her own reason not to come and i'm sure there is.Anyway,nice chat with her and bring up my mood a bit,so i continue study after that.Until now,i think i still need  a lot of revision.

Hopefully,my test will pass with my own effort...hehe